Introduction: A Duality of Desires

Every individual carries within them a duality of desire - an aspiration towards a certain image, often idealized and unreachable, and the acceptance of a physical reality that may fall short of these ideals. In the following poem, I explore themes of body image, self-esteem, and the quest for self-acceptance. This piece aims to highlight the internal conflict many face as they navigate the complexities of their physical appearance.

Embracing Venusian Veins and Bea Arthur’s Body

Framed in the persona of Venus, the Alleged Angelic, My physique mirrors Bea Arthur's form, a stark reminder. How do I transform into my idealized self, When the answer seems lost, and goals are a distant dream? My thighs, an epidemic, spreading like a plague, Consuming my body, and my eternal dread. Though at 23, I should be deemed pretty and petite, I cringe in the mirror, a hag's twisted reflection.

The Modern Media's Paradox

They say 'thicc is in,' that a booty is hot, Yet, their fantasies steer me towards sex, a trap, my monitor's lot. When I step out, I'm dogged by stares that seem to descend, Prompting vexation, as my thighs stand unbending. I long to achieve the 'e-girl' look, Succumbing to the trends, a visually deceptive hook. Skater skirts, crop-tops, and doe-like eyes, Yet, when I stand, the mirror reassures me of my size.

Self-Perception vs. Societal Expectations

I've attempted to rationalize, 'Guys love big butts,'As I rack up miles on my trusty exercise bike, a futile look. Geared towards change, I've consumed nearly nothing but celery and water, Seeking a figure that might grant inner vitality. Yet, my pelvic bones, explained as fitting for birthing, Resist the imagination, a childfree body, thinning, reverie. In the mirror, where mirrors always seem to lie, I see only the thighs that once promised me goodbye.

Conclusion: The Journey Towards Self-Acceptance

Reflecting on this journey through body image and self-acceptance, A mix of ideals, societal norms, and personal growth. Understanding and embracing both the angel and the hag, Finding balance in a world that often takes all, but puts none back. The quest for self-acceptance, an ongoing race, Where each step forward, a beacon of internal cases. So, let us continue the journey, with resilience and grace, Finding that inner strength, and a new cosmic embrace.